I had my first relationship as I moved to Berlin. 

On our first date, by the canal, we gave our first kiss. 

The next day, I called my friend and laughing said: I fell in love!

Little did I know I would still feel like that now.

18 months have passed - today is the first day of spring.

The last time I saw him was 4 months ago. 

How long does it take for one to realise they are in a toxic relationship?

and how much of yourself do you loose until you say it’s enough?

I don’t talk about him anymore in therapy.

Without you I feel lighter,

and never have I felt so sad.

And then we do it all again?

Ohne dich fühle ich mich leichter, variable dimensions, 2019.